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[23 Feb 2012|01:10pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Ut oh. It's been a "hot minute".

Stuff and things over the past year and a half: Petco screwed me. New marvelous job in Center City. $$$$$$$$$$$. Many loves, only one stuck. Moved to King of Prussia and now I am domesticated. I swear I caught monogamy (sp?) from you people. My sister also popped out a kid. Hes the cutest thing on this planet. Seamus is growing up quick. He gets more handsome every time I see him.

Anyway, I need to vent. I, Michelle McCarron, was a victim of a hate crime. Sorta.

I work in a very urban section of Philly. Coming from a place like PETCO, customer service is and was a struggle. I'm all business, not verbal. Anyway, the past few months I've evolved into a verbally savvy, hilarious employee. My customers come in just to listen to me ramble on... it's fabulous. I've learned a lot about people, and embrace every woman (or male.. trust me) that walks into my store. I LOVE my customers.

The other day, I was on the El. Sunday buses run the worst schedules. Other than taking a bus, decided on the train. Here's the scenario: Bum on the train, preaching and asking for money. As he moves down the train, a small group of about 5 black girls shimmy on down towards me. As the train starts to clear out, lil' ole me is by my lonesome and these chicks start becoming loud and obnoxious. Out of no-where, I hear: "What do you call an elevator full of white people" (its actually a funny joke) "A box of crackers!"

I was also called a "saltine cracker". Personally, I like Ritz. But thats irrelavent.

My feelings were crushed. Such a simple word like that hurt. And I was pitied by every person on that train, although everyone kept their mouth shut. Racism will never be over in America. It's sad how the tables have turned. There is too much freedom of speech in this country. I told the story to my bus driver (Bruce.. who is also black) and he hears this all day, every day. Thankfully, my customers and a lot of society might think some things sometimes.. but at least show respect.

Happy Black History Month!

-Meesh

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[03 Nov 2010|02:14pm]
[ mood | weird ]

SO! Our store remodel is pretty much 99% completed, minus a few things here and there. I'm so glad it is. It has been nothing but stress and long hours for me to not even be reconized for my hard work. But then again, there goes Corporate America for you. Our grand opening should be fun. We're going to be mobbed, and I'm ready for it. Bring on the business!

I'm so tired of being tired. I figured the weekend off would be comforting for me, but it just makes it worse for me to go back. I need to get to a meeting soon. Eh, we'll see.

My photography side project seems to be doing awfully well, to say the least. It keeps me out of trouble.

I'm strangely comfortable with it.

love,

Me.

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[27 Oct 2010|11:59am]
[ mood | cranky ]

I need to start getting back into this. It might be a good outlet, not to mention an asset to my own sanity.

I started online dating a few weeks ago. I can't believe I actually gave in. I guess since getting out of rehab, I can't just go out and meet a guy in a bar anymore. Although beer googles is a good concept, it is amounting to nothing.

I kind of like it though, as much as I hate to admit it. It's like pick and choose. And also, a lot easier to approach someone. If someone bothers you, skip a restraining order and just block them. THAT simple.

I'm strangely comfortable with it.

MOVING ON!

My stores remodel is pretty much complete. Thank. Fucking. God. The entire overnight thing was cool at first, but I was so out of touch with the world. Id be up at 3am looking for someone to text. Who was sober.

It looks great though. It was such a big deal for me. Petco is all Ive known for 3 years, and seeing it remodeled and renovated was kind of like getting a new job. Or more so, a new location. Lets see if I still want to kill myself or not in a few weeks after it settles in.

Am I crazy: Yes/No.
Do I need a life: Confirm/Deny.

I can't wait for Friday. Social Distortion.. after years of wanting to see them. Oh, to be young!

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food for thought. [13 Sep 2010|12:00am]
[ mood | anxious ]

"First time I read Emma Goldman wasn't in a book. I was sixteen, hiking near the Nevada border . The quote was painted on a wall in red. When I saw those words it was like someone ripped them from the inside of my head"

"Anarchism... stands for liberation of the human mind from the dominion of religion; the liberation of the human body from the dominion of property; liberation from shackles and restraint of government. It stands for social order based on the free grouping of individuals"

"The concept was pure, simple, true, it inspired me, led a rebellious fire, but ultimately I learned the lesson that Goldman, Prudot and the others learned. That true freedom requires sacrifice and pain. Most human beings only think they want freedom. In truth they yearn for the bondage of social order, rigid laws, materialism, the only freedom man really wants, is the freedom to become comfortable."

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[19 Sep 2009|11:55am]
[ mood | love ]

Well can't you see that it's just raining
there ain't no need to go outside...
But Baby, You hardly even notice
when I try to show you
this song is meant to keep ya
from doing what you're supposed to
like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
I'll make you banana pancakes
pretend like it's the weekend now

And we can pretend it all the time, yeah
Can't you see that it's just raining
there ain't no need to go outside

But just maybe,
halaka ukulele
mama made a baby
Really don't mind the practice
cause you're my little lady
lady lady love me
cause I love to lay here lazy
we could close the curtains
pretend like there's no world outside

And we can pretend it all the time
and can't you see that it's just raining
there ain't no need to go outside
ain't no need ain't no need Mmmm MMmmm
Can't you see, can't you see
rain all day
and I don't mind.

The telephone singing ringing it's too early don't pick it up
we don't need to
we got everything we need right here and everything we need is enough
just so easy
when the whole world fits inside of your arms
do we really need to pay attention to the alarm?
wake up slow, mmm mmm wake up slow
But baby You hardly even notice
when I try to show you
this song is meant to keep ya
from doing what you're supposed to
like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
i'll make you banana pancakes
pretend like it's the weekend now

And we can pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
ain't no need to go outside
ain't no need ain't no need
rain all day and I really really really don't mind
Can't you see, can't you see,
you gotta wake up slow

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[08 Sep 2009|01:46pm]
[ mood | content ]

I met a guy. I like him, and he makes me smile. A lot. He also likes to spend time with me. I think thats why I like him back.


ANYWAY!!!

So due to lack of authority in families now-a-days, a bunch of "children" have put a bat through my window. Needless to say, that child ended up in the hospital. So now my roomates and I must look for a new section of the city to live in. This is a hassle and annoying and I most CERTAINLY do NOT want to deal with it.

I like this weather. It smells good. I wanna go on an adventure soon. I'm off until next monday (minus tomorrow night) and Im very stoked. I may wanna visit my babyboo Seamus. We'll see.

love,
me

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[18 Jul 2009|08:04pm]
[ mood | miserable ]

I am tired of:

work, walking, cleaning, the cat, fighting/argueing.. in general, detectives, feeling fat, feeling unhealthy, spending money, company, drinking, partying, stupid movies and bad music, cops, bad news, the news, tired, xbox 360 and fallout, mops, dishes, water guns, rain, heat, stifle, not seeing Seamus, whiskey, trash, my cellphone, rent+bills, 40+ hours of work, being bored.. a lot, bad books, not enough reading time, men, women, rocks, shitty shoes, unpainted toenails, dust, stray cats, dogs, beer bottles, and broken glass.

love,
michelle mcbitter.

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[03 Jul 2009|07:58pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

We were always drunken roustabouts
Had our ups, downs, and near throwdowns
You were the center of attention
That mayor of party town
But that ended forever more
When your Les Paul crashed the Troubadour floor
Tobe's got a drinking problem

You started a wayward teen
Joined every late night drinking team
The life of every party, first to show the last to go
How that reputation grew, until everybody knew
Tobe's got a drinking problem
Tobe's got a drinking problem

As the years they move along
And all your chaos carries on
Remember down in Florida we had to bail you out
Maybe now's the time to choose
Between serenity or booze
Tobe's got a drinking problem
Tobe's got a drinking problem

"Hey, give the guy a break, he wasn't that bad.
It isn't make or break, so give him his bottle back."

Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey

Tobe's got a drinking problem
Tobe's got a drinking problem

I swear by almighty God
That I'm never drinking again
I'm gonna get back my girlfriend
I'm gonna get back my job
I'm never drinking again

Tobe's got a drinking problem
Tobe's got a drinking problem
Tobe's got a drinking problem

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[28 Jun 2009|09:55pm]
[ mood | good ]

Seamus Patrick Griffin was born at 3:54 weighing 8lbs 14 ounces. He is the greatest thing that has happened to me.

As much as I wish I was there with my cousin, I'm glad she called me tonight. She told me everything.. and it left me in tears.

I just cant help thinking where her and I were 10 years ago. 15 years ago. 20. and so forth. Her and I always talking about getting married. which WWF wrestlers we were going to run off with. Our loves at the time. What we were going to play later. Or which Disney movie to watch. Our past. Our future. Our lives.

And this is it. It couldn't be more real. And it couldn't be better.

I'm so proud of her. Word's cant even explain. She did it.

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[28 Jun 2009|10:25am]
[ mood | cranky ]

So, I'm back to watching Sex and the City religiously. It helps me deal with the fact other peoples love lifes are just as fucked up as mine.

I need some good company tonight.

at least I'm actually sleeping without the help of alcohol or sleep aids. That seems to count for something. I guess.

Steph's in the hospital. They said around noon or so the baby should be here. I wish I was there. So much. I would have called out if I knew John was working today. Not in a mean sort of way, but he would have understood.

Damn me for taking the actual due date off!

Better days. Good Lord I need some.

truely,
Michelle

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[26 Jun 2009|09:41pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Things have been okay. Things have been not okay.

I have the cutest fucking kitten. Sir Reginald III. I call her Reggie. She keeps me sane. And I spend too much money on her.

Single, again. Stopped drinking. And smoking too much.

My roommates also keep me sane.

My nephew better be born soon. I'm getting impatient. I need a good man in my life.

love,
aunt meesh

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[20 May 2009|06:57pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.
-Hunter S. Thompson

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[20 May 2009|06:47pm]
[ mood | content ]

I have the house to myself.

Im spending it watching The Bad News Bears, with a six pack, a cheesesteak, and a pack of smokes.

I like life a lot right now.

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[20 May 2009|06:43pm]
Woman Fights Off Intruders With Chili
AP posted: 1 DAY 21 HOURS AGOc
TAZEWELL, Tenn. (May 18) - Up in Tazewell, Wanda Bray slings a mean bowl of chili. Quite literally.

Claiborne County Sheriff's Capt. David Honeycutt said Bray was confronted by men who broke into her home Tuesday night and she fought back by throwing what was described as "household objects" at them, including a bowl of homemade chili.
Then, according to The Knoxville News Sentinel, the 58-year-old Bray went after the intruders with a broom. They fled.
Police later arrested three men and charged them with the home invasion robbery and with a recent convenience store holdup.
Honeycutt said the intruders demanded drugs from Bray and probably got away with a bottle of blood pressure pills.
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[17 May 2009|02:03pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

I have a tattoo idea that I need to get drawn up somehow. Preferably by Friday afternoon.

Its an old school tattoo..."For Daddy" in old school lettering and scroll, etc. Underneath a pack of Marbrolos crossed with a dart, orange and green dart flight. Slightly to the left but underneath, my family crest.. McCarron, but girlied up a bit. And on the otherside all mixed together, some tattoos that my dad had.

I need this. It's closeur in my book. I've been feeling lousy lately. I figued the man created me. The least I can do is dedicate an arm in his honor.

I miss him a lot lately. It's hitting me. 4 years later. I need to find more pictures of him.

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[08 May 2009|04:35pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

THINGS MICHELLE WANTS RIGHT NOW:
-camel lights
-a martini
-a new beach chair
-a new swimsuit
-a collection of calvin and hobbes comics
-a toaster
-coffee with skim milk and sweet n low. preferably D&D
-Nate to get home to keep me company
-fabio to look healthy and alive
-a bouquet of flowers
-a grilled cheese sammywich
-plans for tonight
-a funny birthday card

love,
the birthday girl

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[02 May 2009|10:50pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

So. Im all moved in. And fortunatley, the cable guy actually showed up.

I like living here. Its relaxing. And carefree. I love my brothers.

Decided that me and Nate are going punk for the upcoming wedding. I love being young, man.

your bud,
Michelle

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[21 Apr 2009|10:26pm]
[ mood | okay ]

I had a good day. Window shopped at Target for my polka dot bathroom. Ashton's letting me. My moms getting me a blender for my birthday/new house so I can have margaritas at my birthday party.

I'll be twenty in 2 weeks.


I kinda like being 19. It's an odd age. Kinda my favorite.

I met the love of my life. Her name is Lola. She's a year and a half and her breed consist of half bulldog and half boxer. Im in the process of trying to adopt her, and she's heaven sent.

I hope by Gods good grace I get to have her. I think she's what I need right now.

Keep your fingers crossed =]

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[18 Apr 2009|10:15am]
Like an angel who'd been dancing with some devils.
I'm a bad girl with a hope for better day.
My laughter is spiced with mischief.
I won't toss salt, kiss it up, or pray.
When you offer pink or blue I'll take the blackest.
When you offer only two I'll offer three.
When you point me in a direction I'll run backwards.
And at the border of utopia I'll toast to anarchy!

‘Cause fire and rock I'm coming home to you.
Well, I'm picking the bones out of my dinner stew.
Open up the gates of hell and roll me through.
Fire and rock I'm coming home to you.

I am a leader but you will not follow me.
I ain't no preacher for I'm full of blasphemy.
See you in hell boys.
See you in hell boys.

So you're saying Satan's army is rising up soon.
While if it is I'm secretary of no state.
Got riches, rocks, and bottles in my tool pouch.
My desire is societies jail bait.

‘Cause there's tons of guys moping about the workday.
Dimes by the dozens.
Their song weighs a thousand pounds.
But there's nothing like a lady with a buzz saw.
I just might build your house but I just might tear it down.

‘Cause fire and rock I'm coming home to you.
Well, I'm picking the bones out of my dinner stew.
Open up the gates of hell and roll me through.
Fire and rock I'm coming home to you.

I am a leader but you will not follow me.
I ain't no preacher for I'm full of blasphemy.
See you in hell boys.
See you in hell boys.

Yeah, barkeeper we'll surely have another.
To the witches, to the goblins, and the trolls.
I'll be coming to recruit your rebel children.
There ain't no use in locking doors,
There's one of me in every hole.

With mud on my boots,
and blood on my jeans.
I'll take those pretty dresses,
Tear ‘em at the seams.
Roll me through the gate of hell.
Ah please.
And I'll be back in your daughter's dreams.

I am a leader but you will not follow me.
I ain't no preacher for I'm full of blasphemy.
See you in hell boys.
See you in hell
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[16 Apr 2009|07:07pm]
[ mood | eh ]

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say i love you no more
'cause saying how we feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
'cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

Let's not wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's not wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

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